false flicker(s)

I don’t know what others can see when they close their eyes. When I do so, I see sparkles, red and blue lightnings tangling with each other. It is a realm where I can only stay shortly between being awake and falling asleep every day, where I cannot distinguish if the thoughts exist in reality or just the fantasy dimension. The sparkles and lightnings are fluxional which make me always want to follow with my eyes, but I always fall asleep before I can actually look at them.